Isaiah 43:7
I have created him for my glory.
From the moment we knew you were there,
Our little girl or boy,
Our hearts did swell with so much love,
Our days were filled with joy.
Each day we prayed for you our child,
How we wanted you to stay!
Resting in our in loving Father's will,
Content to follow His way.
Many weeks I carried you
Safely beneath my heart.
And now our Father has carried you
To His home where you'll never depart.
From the moment we knew you were there,
Our world was filled with joy.
And now heaven's that much sweeter too,
With our little girl or boy.
Wednesday afternoon, I went to the doctor. Our sweet little baby's heart was no longer beating.
Yesterday, we went to our doctor in La Paz to check again.
He was so kind and caring and as he was doing the ultrasound, he found 2 little babies, both of whom are now in heaven.
I was almost 11 weeks along.
Not knowing I was carrying twins, I wrote the above poem in my journal Wendesday night.
Our hearts hurt and the tears have fallen, but we have often held each other close and the Lord always holds us closer...He is so loving, so good, and so gentle.
Having had a miscarriage between my oldest two children and now having had two after having our little Samuel, it doesn't get any easier. It always amazes me the love the Lord gives a mommy for her child from the first moment she knows he/she is within her.
Through the pain, this one thing I know...That all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
Why did God allow this to happen? Because He is so loving, and so good, and only does what is best for us.
The Lord gave and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. Job 1:21
When my heart hurts and the tempter brings doubts and fears, I just want to bless our Lord. Always trusting, always clinging to Him, always renewing my mind with His Word.
Thank you so much for your prayers for me and our babies these past weeks. I'm so thankful the Lord has given us a sweet family in Christ who pray, love and encourage us so much.
I am so thankful I have 12 precious children here on earth, and 4 sweet little ones in heaven.
And I'm most thankful for the blessed Hope we have through Jesus Christ our Savior where one glorious day, there will be no more tears, no more dying, no more pain.
He is so faithful and so good.